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Terrible Couple of Months

Terrible Couple of Months

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So I thought I was pregnant. Went to the doctor. I had a miscarriage. I'm ok with this, just nature's way ...if I had been further along or really trying to get pregnant I would have been devastated. However, my doctor put me on some hormones to start my period because before I got pregnant... I hadn't had a period since August. That's way too long. I haven't had a good night's sleep since. The pills were 10 days long and supposed to start my period.. well.. the night before last I took my last one and no period. I don't get it. I wish I had gotten home early enough to call the gyno, but I got home right at 5:30 (boo). I'm feeling extremely dehydrated. I prayed all night last night because I was feeling strange... not exactly bad, just strange. I keep thinking something is REALLY wrong with me. Like everything is scaring me. If I have a headache.. I'm having a stroke (because I'm on hormones). If my leg hurts it's because there is a blood clot in it. It's like I'm seeing all the possible ways I could die in every situation. It's major anxiety. I've always been like this to a certain extent, but could shut it off now and again and go for a few days without imagining my death, but now it's constant. I don't know if it's the medicine or the fact that every second I'm either feeling nauseous, or in some mild discomfort (whether it be pain or a strange feeling). I don't like this. I don't think Patrick knows it's as bad as it is. He spent some extra time hugging me this morning before he went to work because I said I felt strange and I was worried. He said he'd call me throughout the day. I just want to feel normal.
  • It's possible the hormone pills are what's causing all the anxiety.

    Have you had any change in weight lately? I know that can really screw with your periods. I had a friend that was significantly overweight and she was told she wasn't having periods because of it. same is true for losing. She lost like 50-60 lbs and started having them again.

    Just a thought. I hope you start feeling better soon.
  • I am overweight. I tend to hover around the 230's, unfortunately. I'm trying to lose weight, but rather unsuccessfully. I'm calling my regular doctor tomorrow to talk about this pain in my leg (vericose vein) and my anxiety. I just honestly want to feel normal. I can't stand feeling anxious all the time.
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